Thursday, November 10, 2011

Release

Today I completed an Anthony Wong workshop focussing on the Ivanna Chubbuck method.
And reached an amazing release. I feel alive again and inspired to get more out of life. He said something which really stuck with me "Live your life as if it is a bucket list."

I have a lot to do!

I wrote a poem...it's a bit messy but whatever!


And the World Said No


She felt like giving up.
She dreamt to tear down all that once inspired her and rip it to shreads.
She thought to rip, to burn, to set flame to all that once engulfed her!
She down was down, she was low, she was set to the ground.
Her mind was adaze with unhappiness, negative flow.
Where had that happy girl once gone?
She was inside somewhere, hiding from the world.
But today, she let go!
Something inside set forth to the universe.
She yelled out “No more!”
“I can’t do it anymore!”
She went to run and hide,
But the universe shoved it back in her face,
“You can’t run away from life!”
“It’s staring at you! Come and find me!”
“The world is at your doorstep,
It takes small steps to walk my Girl,
But it will lead to leaps and bounds!”
When she thought to give up,
The world said NO!
When she thought to hide,
The sun shone brighter.
Taunting her with its happiness.
When she thought to cower,
The skies rattled with threat.
And the storms would pass with rain.
From there the greens would flourish,
The flowers would blossom,
And she would find her purpose.
The world smiled at her,
“Life is out there, Young Woman,
You just have to be brave enough to find it!”

Meisha Lowe (C) Copyright November 2011

Thursday, October 20, 2011

The Little One so Low

The Little One so Low (C) Copyright Meisha Lowe

"The Little One was lost
And she felt the depths of Low
She dreamt of pure Escape
In a day that would not show.

Freedom had its ways
Of peering through its dust
Through misted eyes and Sadness
The world she did not Trust.

No glory left its Presence
Emotions lingered longer still
While slowly she hoped to gather Strength
And call upon lost Will.

Low breathed its name so heavy,
And the heaviness stunk of spite
While the world outside kept on Living
As she hid in lonely Fright.

Her mind began to sway
To lands far Beyond her time
Where oceans gathered Stronger
And words had lost their rhyme.

Her mind was worlds away
And yet she hid beneath the covers
For the One she Missed the most
Was the One who'd hear her Suffer.

She called out far and wide
For the One she'd know would be,
Waiting, Loving, finding,
For all around to see.

"Please help me One I Need you,
There is nothing I can do,
But cry and feel the Sadness
Of the world; it's only True."

Her sobs were heard so soft
Retreated; young and Small
There was a Little Girl inside
Trapped behind that wall.

It was time to set her free
And break down barriers built
To restructure what was Lost
The world; back on it's tilt

The Older Self, so tender,
Reached out to the Little One
And said "Dear Girl don't shiver,"
For the shining Sun will come.

"You have the strength to Live,
And the drive will feed you still,
To live amongst the living,
And feel the strength of Will."

The Little Girl replied,
And wiped away flowing tears,
And said to her Older Self,
"I've been living life in Fear."

The Older Self looked down,
With wisdom beyong her years,
And smiled a Smile so Bright,
Which washed away her fears.

Little One stood up tall,
And began to slowly grow,
Reaching the height of Older One,
Finally Letting Go.

It was time to stand with strength,
With the Little One still inside
Knowing that she was Safe,
No longer she would hide.

To feel true Love and Loss
And to live and let live in Life,
Now ready to feel the world,
She would no longer live in sacrifice.

The Little One of course still present
But the Girl had grown up tall,
A Young Woman now stood in her place,
With the Confidence of All."

(C) Copyright Meisha Lowe 21st October 2011

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Find Your Voice!


(Winter Coat - Surrealeon Pictures)

Hello World :)

Since my last blog I have now successfully and FINALLY moved to Sydney! The move had its trials and tribulations of course but I am happily sitting in my new room and am based in Bondi where creativity is buzzing in the air.

Over the years and particularly over the past few days, I have been told that I speak very "softly" and am "very quiet" or "quietly spoken". As an actor, this is definitely one of my weaknesses.

I think becoming aware of our weakness, is the first step towards making a concious decision to change those weaknesses into strengths.

It is my goal to Find My Voice!

Growing up, we have so many different factors which contribute to the way we speak, act and even listen to people. Our upbringing, social standards and group of friends all affect the way we are as people.

For me, I have often felt (being the youngest of three girls) and being a young female that sometimes my word does not have "weight" to it. Thus it leads to an idea that my opinion might not be "valid" or "right" or even "smart enough"!

But a friend recently said to me "it's better to speak and have an opinion than have no opinion at all."

So who is smarter?; the one who is too shy to speak up and cringes when the questions come to them, or the one who states their opinion even if it may not be "right"?

It shouldn't really be a question of "smartness" but a question of whether we have the confidence to know that our voice should be heard, no matter how small and mousy we may sound ;)

***

On a slightly different note!

I was involved in a JMC Academy Graduate Short Film called Winter Coat and here are a few still shots from the production.
I am looking forward to seeing this in its final edit!



Keep well :)

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

A Life of Writing

Hello :)

Ever since I was young I've written stories and poems. My Mum used to compile all of my little drawing story books when I was little, and I still have a few copies, stashed away in the depths of my car at the moment.

It has always been my dream to compile a book of my best poetry and one day I will achieve this...for now however, I will share a few via my blog, please be mindful this is original work and copyrighted to me.

I wrote this one last year, not based on any particular event, for some reason it just came to me. The mind is an interesting vessel and I believe creatively we channel them from an unknown depth...


Weakness

I felt the fear engulf me
As I saw him standing there
I felt my world collapsing
The panic was a world to bear

He said he would protect me
But his hands came down in two
I struggled beneath his breath
His words of love weren’t true

He made me say his name
As he held me by the hair
I gasped in crying pain
In agony; complete despair

He yelled “Why don’t you love me!”
I did everything for you
But you betrayed me Dearest
You’re a liar! I always knew!”

I barely heard him rave
But I choked two words through fear
“You’re...weak...” I said to him
His response; a single tear

He wiped away his “weakness”
And his eyes grew wide with rage
He swung his fist so fast
His violence; there was no gauge

My world went into circles
As I felt his fist connect
But he tripped on drunken feet
This he could not deflect.

His head hit concrete hard
And he cried like a whaling child
He whimpered “I’m sorry babe,”
His lies were so defiled

He tried to make a stand,
To escape his jail of pain
But his body would not connect
He tried to stand in vain

I wiped away my blood,
Standing dizzy but feeling strong
As he lay inside the gutter
Knowing he’d done so wrong

I stood above his wretched heart
I’d waited for this day
“Who is weaker Coward?”
“The one who hits or the one who stays?”

The siruns began to sing
But I fled into the night
I knew he’d pay for violence
To scar was not his right.

I walked into the darkness
Only chance had I escaped
The violence was behind me
It was a path too long traipsed.

Copyright Meisha Lowe (c) 2011

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Moving On...

The time is almost here...

As I make the final preparations for my move to Sydney, I am posed with mixed emotions; some for the good, some for the sad, and some with pure excitement about a future which I have no idea what it has in store for me.

The question I have been posed most often with regards to my move to Sydney has been "Do you have a gig lined up already for when you arrive?" or "Are you going there for some set acting work?"

The simple answer: No.

But my mind answers: Why is it that I "need" to have work to "go to" to feel secure or to make others have faith in my move towards my future?

Is that the common fear?

Are people afraid to go on a journey without a set destination upon arrival? Are they afraid of going somewhere, chasing a dream and not knowing 100% if they will "make it"?

We are placed on this earth, each person, for an individual reason; a challenge in life that we must face. For everybody it is different, and how we choose to face this journey, is up to us.

Maybe I'm just rambling, but I say go forth with life; go blind, go knowingly, go in which ever way you choose, but most of all...make it worth it.

To Sydney and beyond :)

Meisha

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Corporate Theatre!



Just a quick post to say I was fortunate enough to do my first corporate theatre performance gig this week which was a great project to be involved in. A Way Out Theatreworks performance tailored made for Siemans - I was accompanied by actor/and corporate theatre pro; Tony Nixon and also local actor Drew Jarvis. Very different to screen acting, of course, but none the less greatly enjoyable! I'm looking forward to more in the future. Quick note for all us "budding" actors - keep up the impro skills, as it's definitely needed for roving!

Keep safe :)

Meish

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Getting Started as an Actor

Getting Started as an Actor

Recently I have received a couple of emails from people asking for advice, on how to get started as an actor, and where I seem to be getting my acting work from. So I thought I would write a blog for all to read and perhaps take on some advice of someone (me!) who was not too long ago in the same "confused and wondering" state of mind when it came to acting.

These are the tips I have picked up along the way from different friends/actors/industry people that I have been fortunate enough to be surrounded and supported by over the past 2 years. I was asked a few main questions in these emails:

"I have always wanted to start acting but I'm just too scared. But I know I'll kick myself if I never try."

My answer: Feel the Fear - Fear is a natural instinct in life which arises when we experience something new and challenging. The scariest part can sometimes be making the decision to take your first acting class, do your first short film or even say your first line on a tv show (and perhaps stuff it up - I did that! - woops). Know that fear is normal, and conquering it can be so empowering! It is amazing what we can achieve when we challenge ourselves. If you want to start acting, don't let it stay as a dream, make it a reality. Try a class, audition for a short film and at least get a taste of the industry that you've always desired. Some will find it's not for them, and others will be left with a passion for acting which drives them everyday!

Secondly I get asked - "Where do you find all your auditions, short films and other acting work?" - There are several different websites where you can see castings; e.g. AT2 and Showcast, but they are particularly for proffessional work and if you are just starting out and don't have an agent, a smaller stepping stone might be to start on the website Starnow. It has castings to shorts film, features, independent work etc. You can join and have access to all of this. Every week I check the site for new listings and apply for castings. Even if you don't see yourself as fitting the character type, go for the auditions because you never know want the director is looking for. Have confidence in knowing that any audition is a good learning experience for you as an actor; we never stop learning!

"Auditions!?" - A few things you'll need (I'm sure you'd know even if you're just starting out) -
*A current acting resume
*Headshots
*The product - YOU!
*Confidence and profesionalism

"Acting; it can't be THAT hard?! Right?!" - I won't lie to you; acting IS hard. It requires persistance, patience and last of all PASSION! Without passion, I would be lost. But I believe, for me personally, so long as you have the drive and motivation, what can stop you from striving towards your dreams?

I know I'm only just starting out in this industry also, but I feel I have been so lucky to have learnt what I have from those around me and I've met along the way. So I wanted to share what I can, for those also aspiring to acting as a career or at least for those who want a taste of the acting world. I hope this answers a few questions coming from someone who is still very new to this industry also.

Keep safe,
Meisha :)
www.meishalowe.com

Monday, May 16, 2011

Wings

Hello :)

I felt a little creative burst this morning on my way to work at dawn:

~Wings~

She skipped
and she yelled
She tripped
and she fell.

She cried
because she tried
But she dusted her knees
and kept on skipping...

Her wings
not strong enough
Her hair
not long enough.

She reached
above
And she yearned
of love.

She tried again
but she kept on tripping...

Her wings
would quiver
With fear and fright
But she powered on
to pursue her flight.

With wings
of gold
She took that leap
and found the strength
That she'd always keep.

Copyright (C) Meisha Lowe May 2011

Sunday, May 15, 2011

"The Wardrobe"



Meisha as Amy in "The Wardrobe"


Over the last week I have been fortunate enough to be involved in two short films for Griffith university. The first was a grad film called "The Last Bark" and the second a post-grad masters film called "The Wardrobe". I encountered new experiences and of course challenges in both films, particularly "The Wardrobe", but ones that will make me stronger as an actor.


My character, the lead female, was a emotionally troubled woman who's past was not as far away as she once thought (I won't give anymore away as you'll have to wait and see!). The depth to her character and the emotional layering was something I really wanted to show truthfully through the screen. With one week to prepare and create a character, basing it on four other relationships with other characters also, I found myself in a new area of acting.


It was extremely important for me to keep focussed and distance myself from the crew when needed for the emotions to truly be captured on screen. I found myself sitting alone, listening to tracks on my mp3 to keep me focussed and in the "mood" of Amy while on set. This really helped.

Of course as any actor knows, recreating the same scene take after take is another challenge, but this is also one of the joys of acting. If something isn't feeling right, you have the option to change something if it's not working. I had to save my energy and pure emotion for my close ups but also create truth throughout every take. I feel I'm starting to learn my own techniques; finding out what helps and what doesn't. Doing these short films is such a fantastic way for new actors to test out what they've learnt. Each one is a new learning experience and the contacts and friends made through networking is fabulous. We have to remember we are all here to help each other in this industry; the young filmakers and young actors can work together to create the work for ourselves. Who knows where it might take us? :)

This filming experience has made me realise what kind of acting I want to focus on. When you've completed several short films, you'll start to find an area which really sits with you; for me it's drama, layering characters with their emotional hardship, exploring relationship breakdowns and portraying the trials of life in itself;this truly inspires me as a young actress.

I'm looking forward to seeing it edited and can't wait to continue challenging myself with these sorts of films.

Keep safe,

Meisha

Monday, April 25, 2011

Old Writings...

Hello again :)

Recently I have been reading through my old diaries. It's amazing to see the transformation day by day, year by year, and how all my old fears and doubts were overcome with time as my path settled into place. It amazed me to read about when I first began studying Journalism and yet my diary was filled with aspirations of wanting to act. I had no idea how to get into it, where to start or even what to do! I just wanted to do it! Slowly but surely I found my path and the people along the way who helped guide me in getting started. Diaries are so amazing to remind you of what you've learnt and accomplished.

I also came across this poem that I wrote about my Grandad after he passed away, I had a dream about him and I wrote:

Terracotta Vase

Entrapped in the terracotta vase
Sitting in the only place
You used to sit...
The memory of you is here.

Physically you’ve gone
But I know I can re-create
Your spirit, your memory...
For you never fully left.

The power of my mind
Places you in the hospital bed
This time it’s in reverse...

You’re unconscious.
But when I appear...
You stir to greet the world

Nothing will stop you this time
No one will be left behind.
You’re smile will greet the world once more.

As you walk down those long white halls
Your robes drag on the floor

But it doesn’t faze you
Because you’re here
And that’s all that matters.

Captured in your love
A hug so tight
I fight to breathe
But I’m happy because you’re here.

Sadly nothing’s that easy.

I wake to find myself entrapped.
Wishing I were in your arms
Covered in your robes of white
But I’m merely trapped
In the whites of my own sheets

The hospital robes are gone...
And so are you.

I miss you.

Meisha Lowe (C) 2009


Writing helps us express, it helps us emote, and it helps us reflect.

Keep well,

Meisha

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Boxing Spec Ad

Hello,

Here is the link to my latest commercial (spec ad) for Lorna Jane -

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4QZhIu8lkc&feature=youtu.be

Not long until I finish my course...and onto the next stage of acting!

Keep well,

Meisha

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Boxing Spec Ad



Hello Again,

I was fortunate enough to be involved in an amazing "Boxing Spec Ad" a few weeks ago, based at the Fortitude Boxing Gym. It was a long day but definitely worth the sweat. The photographers Steve and Holly from Sight Unseen Photography took some amazing shots.


More of the photos can be viewed on Sight Unseen Blog post - Never Give Up:
http://www.sight-unseen.com/journal/?p=343

And thank you to Enjoy Productions for getting me involved!

Next film...boxing girl ready to take on the world?

...let's just see!

Meisha

Monday, March 14, 2011

Passion

Passion

Everybody in life has their calling.

Some take years to find it and some by chance, luck or whatever you want to call it know from a very young age.

I was fortunate enough to always know where I wanted to see myself in the future, but of course things weren't always as smooth running.

These days acting is the only thing I see myself truly putting in 110% effort for. To begin with I had my fears, my doubts (and trust me they still fly around in that head of mine) but with the right support network and belief in oneself and your own skills; anything is possible.

Over the past year and a half I have learnt so much and really am only breaking at the ice of what is to come in the future. But I can say that I truly am excited for what the future holds; knowing that each day, the only person who I can blame or congratulate for my "failure" or "success" is myself.

What kind of actor do you want to be? What kind of actor are you? It's not as easy to answer as you think...

Meisha

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Underbelly Infiltration




Hello World :)

Life has certainly been on the highs and lows of lates, but thankfully I feel it heading up again. I was very proud to watch my first on screen appearance on national television last night for the screening of Underbelly Infiltration. It was very exciting to be a part of such a wonderful production with an amazing cast and crew, even for the small but "interesting" role I was lucky enough to score.
Also here is the link if you missed it - http://fixplay.ninemsn.com.au/underbellyfiles/1/8211045/infiltration-part-i


Of late I am also pleased to note that our entry in the Optus 180 film competition is in the Top 10 across Australia I believe. Here is the link if you would like to vote - http://www.one80project.com.au/view_entry10.php?id=482

What's on the cards next for Meisha Lowe: editing my showreel! I've finally got enough material to edit a reel and am going to be spending time doing so pronto!

So I say thank you for the past successes and experiences and now towards the next project...whatever that may be ;)

Keep safe,

Meisha

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