Friday, November 15, 2013

Expectations

Expectations
Silent killers.
Unmet dreams, broken promises.
False preconceptions.
The bane of the girl with imagination.
When should she stop dreaming?
Dreaming.
Dreamer.
Dream.
That's what it is.
All but a dream.
Life's only what she makes of it.
But how long can she continue?
Running into that same brick wall?
She'll lock up her heart, her mind, her soul.
But she will never be fulfilled.
Enclosed in a dungeon.
She will die alone.

(C) Meisha Lowe 2013




Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Sour Lemons

Sour Lemons

She boils, oh how she broils
Fire rages in her belly
Tiny, isty, bitsy burning ants
clawing at her skin.

The taunts, the leers
The clicks, the waves, the rage
And she asks herself, "Why?"
"Why do we do it?!"
But he shouts so loud...

"Bring me my lemon! Bitch!"
She cannot hear over his sour lemons.

(C) Meisha Lowe 2013



Monday, September 2, 2013

Canadian Anniversary

Almost a whole year has passed since I moved to Canada.

In two weeks I will be celebrating a year of living and surviving in Vancouver, Canada. It has been an experience, both challenging and fruitful. I have been blessed with some great friends, many a road trip and some great acting experience. I was lucky to sign with an agency within a few weeks of moving to Canada. Earlier this year booked my first role in a North American feature film - Eadweard Muybridge - starring Michael Eklund and Sara Canning.  I played "Florence" a young Irish model in the 1800's.  It was a great experience and although I was only on set for one day, it left me yearning for more!

Early 2013 saw me doing various short films. I always enjoy these because it is a chance to test out what works and what doesn't work for you as an actor. And if you're persistent enough, you will get a copy of the film to edit to your demo reel. My current demo reel is comprised primarily of short films, and even scenes that I have shot myself (with the help of the lovely Cole Bayford and Adam Boys) to add some variety.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWOVkedgYQA

Before I moved to Canada, I was worried about my standard American accent - but no longer! Living, listening and practising the accent has helped me refine and now confidently say, I can do a strong and believable North American accent. Since becoming a server (yes I am a stereotypical waitress/actress!)  my accent has become a lot better.  With all of my customers I use my North American accent and then switch back to my Aussie tongue when talking to the kitchen/other servers. It is surprising how quickly this became second nature to me. It is rare for a customer to ask me "Where are you from?" unless I intentionally switch to my Australian accent just to mess with them! ;) So just to reiterate - the best way is to practise in everyday life and become comfortable so you don't have to think about it anymore. When I was living in Australia I used to read pages of a book out loud in an American accent, record it and listen back to see how it was sounding.

Practise makes perfect.

Reflecting on the year, I have had some great experiences. I have also overcome many challenges and am still struggling with some of the recurring ones. But that is life! Financially living in Vancouver is very testing, but what would life be without struggle? I would like to book more roles here in Vancouver to add to my experience and I am currently making some changes in order to achieve this. I think it is important to establish myself here before moving to another big pond aka LA - it is on the cards just in the future.

I'm still a little fish but I'll just keep swimming.

May your dreams become reality...


Meisha
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Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Affirmations

I have a dream

To succeed
To breathe
To feel
To yearn
To love
To cry
To laugh
To inhale
To exhale.

Sometimes "that voice" gets in the way...

I've learnt
I've loved
I've missed
I've cried
I've screamed
I've hurt
I've felt
I've sacrificed.

I didn't move half way across the world to be ignored
This is my dream
And I will strive for it at no cost

No matter what voice, what doubts, what fears get in the way
I will get there
One day.

xx Meisha



Friday, July 26, 2013

Transformation


Meisha and the Mermaid  -  Wreck Beach 2013

The girl and the sea
the wind and the sky
waves of blonde hair
blowing in the wind

She sits and waits
for something to change
but the wind still cries
the same cries it cried before

She screams
throwing her head so high
"What do you want from me?"
"Who am I supposed to be?"

The clouds roll in
lighting strikes
and the sky begins to cry
falling heavy

She plants her feet 
deep into the sand
"I don't care anymore,
  I can only be me."

She raises her arms
like wings in a stormy night
"It's time to let go."
and she jumps into the sea

In the distance 
she looks back towards land
then the splash of a tail
and she is gone.

(C) Meisha Lowe 2013

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Reclaiming

~*~

I'm reclaiming my voice and it's about time.

It's been ten months since I packed up my life and flew half way around the world to pursue my dream.

I've had highs, lows and everything in between.

Now it's time to reclaim and regain my power.

I'm sick of being "the nice girl", the girl who tries to help, the girl who just listens.

No - now it's my turn.  

My turn to speak, my turn to be heard and my turn to feel.

I'm opening up my lungs, I'm standing my ground and saying, "This is what I want and this is what I deserve."

I've worked hard to get to where I am.

The actors life may seem glamorous, sparkly, full of fun and entertainment -
but do you know what it takes to get those few brief moments?

Dedication. Persistance. Drive. Motivation. Determination.

Life is not handed to me on a silver platter, everything I touch does not turn to gold -
I work hard to get to where I am and will not stop at that.

I have a dream, and my dream is to succeed.

~*~






Friday, June 14, 2013

Here Now

Memories of another life
The smell, the sounds, the waves.

How did we grow up so fast
Where did time escape?

Who's eyes stare back at me
Deeper, darker, wiser.

Time has escaped me
But it is always present.

Dreaming of another moment
Nostalgia licks the air.

But I am here now, not there
I am here now
Not there.

For now.

(C) Meisha Lowe 2013


Monday, June 10, 2013

I'm a triangle trying to fit a square hole
I just don't quite fit in

I sleep upside down

In a bed that's the wrong way up

My body aches

But I'm too tired to move

I yearn for freedom

But I want so badly to be embraced

Did I make the right decision

To leave and search the world

Escaping the madness

Only to meet more mayhem

My mind expanding

With hips to match

A women yet a girl

Who wanders alone barefoot

Tonight I toss and turn
The questions of my existence

Where do I fit in?

Who am I now?
Am I just a girl or a girl who fits.

Freedom is my saviour.


Meisha Lowe (C) June 2013



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Barefoot Wanderings (C) Meisha Lowe


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Monday, June 3, 2013

The Ocean and its Tide


I came across this beautiful song called Fjögur Piano by Sigur Ros and I was overcome with imagery. I had also just finished watching Atonement and I was inspired by its eternal romance. The song left me with such a longing when I heard its beauty, that I began to write this poem...

Listen to the song as you read the following:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjZnbZbEfpg


The Ocean and its Tide

Your whispers in the wind
As I breeze through summer days
The distant memory of you
As these images begin to fade

The hint of salt hits my tongue
As the ocean licks the shore
That ever present loneliness
It leaves me wanting more

The night is warm and dark
But I lay motionless this night
Reaching for those memories
When love was all in sight

The air is still and silent
Your spirit I sense is here
At the foot of my bed I feel you
My heart is beating clear

For fear of losing you again
If I open my eyes too wide
I feel you drift away so fast
Like the ocean and it's tide.

Goodbye my love
I miss you...

(C) Meisha Lowe 2013












Wednesday, May 1, 2013

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I don't want to be boring anymore.

It's in my bones, my heart, my soul
it's infecting my mind and my body
like a sickness that won't shift
I'm tired, I'm bored -
what's the point?

This sickness has enveloped me
my body aches, my heart is tired
the air is stale and strong
love lost is but a distant memory
did it ever really exist?

What took me so far from home
the Land of Sun and Sea
what parted me from friends
the ones who made me laugh the most
the ones who understood.

Moments pass like oozing time
my chest is tight, my airways dry
I can't breath the cold air
There's dull ache, throbbing
When will it go away?

I don't want to be boring anymore.

(C) 2013 Meisha Lowe







Monday, April 29, 2013

The Lock

There is a wall around my heart.
Little men have been building bricks around it
The wall gets higher and higher
Taller and taller
When will it stop?
I don't know.

There is a sadness in my heart.
A little girl sits alone
Waiting for her Dad to rescue her
To scoop her up and hush her cries
When will he arrive?
I don't know.

There is an anger in my heart.
A stomping child screams out loud
Furious she isn't taken seriously
Smashing everything in sight
When will she grow up?
I don't know.

There is a fire in my heart.
A little woman dreams of passion
Love and lust; desire
But her eyes are shut and she doesn't see
When will she realise?
I don't know.

There is a cage in my heart.
A little bird sings for her mate
Pecking at the cage, the walls, the bricks
Hoping one day they will tumble
When will they break?
I don't know.

There is a lock in my heart.
A little Love dreams of another love
But the lock is tight
And the key is lost
When did I throw it away?
I don't remember.

(C) 2013 Meisha Lowe





Tuesday, April 23, 2013

The Lull

I've now been in Vancouver for seven months and have begun to make some great progress in my acting career. 

The first few months were of course little shaky - getting settled in this new city (and country!), acclimatising to the cold and dreary Winter weather, creating new networks both personally and professionally, finding accommodation, the right job and dealing with the financial struggles of transitioning from a well paying acting gig in 2012 to dropping to the minimum wage of a mere $10.25p/hr! These are just some of the things that must be dealt with when moving across the world! But I've learned that the challenge is half the fun.

Beautiful Dreamer - Whistler Olympus Film Festival

God from the Machine

2013 started off with a bang!  For the past three months I have been involved in five different short films - Missing Persons, which my good friend Lillie Claire wrote herself, followed by Two Sides, a UBC Masters project directed by Ryan Atimoyoo. Through connections I made on this film, I met Adrianna Dos Moser, who asked me to be her lead for Unwritten. From there I met Al Yoshizawa on the shoot, and got the lead female role in God from the Machine. And last but not least I had the pleasure to act in Beautiful Dreamer last weekend, which was selected for the Top 10 in the 72 Hour Whistler Olympus Film Festival.  The film was screened in front of a thousand people on four different big screens. It was a lot of fun!

You can view the film here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OB6GCgQklGo

For Beautiful Dreamer, I had the challenge of learning a song in a few hours, to then record/sing and play my ukulele for the short film soundtrack. It was a great experience and gives me so much added respect for musicians and the pressures they must face.
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So after three months of five different short films I am now facing the dreaded LULL. So what IS the lull? - It's the question of "What's next?", "Do you have any acting projects lined up?" or "Had any good auditions lately?". These questions are not only asked by friends, family and fellow actors but they also circle around in my own mind regularly.  I have become a lot better at dealing with these moments over the past year.

The Raven - 2012

I've found in these quiet times it's a good opportunity to watch and study more films, read as many books as you can (keeping the mind fresh and working), learn a monologue (you never know when you might need it!), look into new acting classes and of course keep that blog updated ;)  Even keeping your website, headshots and resume up to date is a good little task to do during these times.

I am also a frequent user of Vancouver Actors Guide - there are constantly audition posts for short and independent films, stage and (if you're lucky) even paid work! WOAH! But it's definitely a good way to keep busy and applying for potential work.

Yesterday I had an audition for an AMC show. The casting agent said my first take was "a little lacking in energy and your eyes were darting around a bit too much", I took these notes into consideration and they seemed happier with my second take. I would like to get to the point where I can blow them away on the first take - because most of the time, you won't get a second chance.

Still shot from God from the Machine

I'm enjoying Canada more and more and loving this beautiful Spring weather. I have made some great connections, networks and friends here in the last seven months. I am excited for what the future holds, and staying positive that something big will come my way soon. It's all a learning experience and I am ready to test my knowledge and skill.
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And - I won tickets to my first Canucks Hockey game on Thursday, yay! We are all Canucks..

Meisha


Friday, March 22, 2013

Dreams

I had a very vivid dream the night before my 23rd birthday.

I dreamt I was standing at the edge of a cliff, overlooking Vancouver city and the snowcapped mountains. The sun was shining, the sky was blue, with but a few clouds in the air. It was as if I were looking North and standing at Cambie St and Broadway where they meet...but it was a cliff.

As I looked into the distance, the road ahead began to melt into a red carpet. Into the distance it then connected with the mountains and led to the sun.

I drew I picture so I wouldn't forget it. It was such a vivid dream....


As I looked at this beautiful sight, I found myself stuck on the edge of this cliff, high above the ground with nothing but thousands of feet of nothingness and rocks below. People around me were falling - some would hit the rocks below, while others made the leap and began to walk towards the road when they landed.

I was so afraid to jump, and fall into the abyss...but I knew if I didn't take that leap of faith, I would never reach the road below.

So I jumped.

And then I woke up.

...Dreamer...

Meisha

Monday, March 18, 2013

Unwritten


The latest short film I have been acting in is a UBC project called "Unwritten". The story follows April (played by yours truly), a once professional horse rider who had a critical riding accident. For the past three months she has suffered from amnesia - now she is just trying to find her way in the world.

The themes of isolation, lonliness, desperation, longing, life and death are all interlaced between the last three short films I've acted in - perhaps my move to Vancouver has expanded my emotional skill set!

It's great just to be on camera again and I look forward to my next short film which starts shooting next week. I'm also excited to cut a new demo-reel - this time using material with only my North American accent.

Here's a link to Behind the Scenes of Unwritten http://www.youtube.com/watchv=6FoxVa9I6Ks&feature=youtube
(46 Seconds is my favourite section haha totally unprompted and unscripted!).

Director Adriana Doser and DOP Al Yoshizawa

 We parked right near this - very fitting!

Pilot season - I'm right here waiting for you!
"Wisk me away, I'll be yours for a day."

I've also been very lucky to tee up some new headshots up with friend and videographer Cole Bayford - here's a sneak peak!


There is a buzz in the air!

Meisha xx

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Opportunity

Beth - Two Sides

With the lead up to pilot season and with the recent triumphs of the Oscars - I am getting very excited for the opportunities to come. This year I feel something big awaits -

I've started off the year with a bang - completing two short films, one written by my lovely and talented friend Lillie Claire, who has just moved to LA to continue pursuing the acting dream. Good luck miss and I will see you down there in the next two years!

The film is called Missing Persons and is directed by Aaron Wintringham. It follows the interaction between the two characters, Jane and Taylor, and the strange happenings that take place inside a grungy laundrymatte. The character of Jane was a new challenge and but I really enjoyed getting to work with Lillie and create a deep connection between the two girls. It will be edited over the coming months and will in turn be submitted into film festivals across Canada.

Jane - Missing Persons

The second film, Two Sides, was by far a more a technical shoot- but none the less enjoyable for different reasons. Directed by Ryan Atimoyoo, for his UBC Master's project, I got to play the lead character Beth who is another dark and troubled character. We worked with green screen and I will be very interested to see the final edit with SFX!

Beth in Two Sides - Green Screen

Watching Jennifer Lawrence take out the Oscar for Best Actress on Sunday was of course inspiring. To see her at age 22 (the same age as me!) getting her first Academy Award was definitely wake up call- time to step up and start hitting it hard.


Congrats to Jennifer Lawrence!

I plan to do more short films and would like to book roles in indi-features over the coming months. And if I play my cards right I want to book something big in the US market as soon as I can!

Here's to the year to come!

Meisha xx


Sunday, February 17, 2013

Questions

...Questions...

Days, hours, minutes
What does it all mean
Where does the time go
Who's breath will last the longest

Reflections of ourselves
Seen in the mirrors of time
Who will be there to hold you
Who's heart will be the strongest

What journey will make you feel
A strengthened being
Experiencing pride, sorrow and laughter
Without a question longer

Who will lay awake
Into the darkest hour
Wondering what the future holds
And who will make it stronger

When will the time come
When happiness transpires
Without question of why or how
But with acceptance and peace

Why do some wrestle
In the depths of their minds
With shadows of fear
When will it the noise cease

What will bring the laughter
When the sky outside is grey
Without attachment or love
Just a knowing of oneself

How do you transform
With a beating, graceful heart
From cocoon to butterfly
When your can't escape yourself?

(C) Meisha Lowe 2013

Monday, February 4, 2013

Moments

"A moment, a breath
A kiss, a sigh
A feeling, a knowing
A last goodbye

She sits, she breathes
She feels the pain
A sadness, a sorrow
She feels again

To journey, to see
To spread her wings
To sacrifice love
For what her heart sings

To live is to learn
To bite is to teethe
To take that moment
When she forgets to breathe

To feel the guilt
To feel is to see
Life is a moment
Just temporary..."

(C) Meisha Lowe

For Betty 
With love, Meisha.




















We forget to breathe

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