Saturday, November 7, 2015

Walk Unafraid ~ 8 Months in LA

Walk Unafraid.

I just heard this beautiful song by First Aid Kit called Walk Unafraid.

It pretty much sums up how I have been feeling the last few months here in LA.

The first 6 months of living here was very up and down for (and it still is but I now have a knowing and trust that everything will be alright). My living situation was not ideal, I was living in a room which had no door, not much privacy and other factors which did not make for an ideal place of comfort or creativity. I was more focussed on getting settled into a job, home and new city rather than focussing on my acting career. I wanted to do things differently this time.

I have lived in four cities in the last 6 years - Brisbane, Sydney, Vancouver and Los Angeles all in pursuit of my acting career. I had always tried to rush things with my acting when I first moved to a new city but this time I wanted it to be different. I needed to settle, get my bearings, make friends, make a supportive network, get ahead financially (haha! I think it's best to forget that one for now).

Within six months I had worked at two different jobs, neither of which fit what I needed specifically. I moved to a new apartment in September and started to finally feel settled. I had my own space, a room, a door, privacy and place to create!

And the acting world opened up at my feet again.

I secured a manager/agent and was starting to audition again. I booked my first LA gig, a short film paying only a small amount of money but I didn't care...I was acting again! It had been two years since I had booked anything. In Canada I was in class studying at least, but I had to focus on saving for my move to Los Angeles. That was the most important thing at the time.

I booked another short film called Little Bird and I finished shooting last week. It felt amazing to be on set again, working, playing, acting. Feeling. It's all a learning experience for me. I watched back some of the dailies and I thought "Oh I could have done that better," or "I wasn't connected" but at the end of the day if I'm learning that means I am making steps forward.

And it's all about the little steps.

I have also been going to the gym almost every day since I moved into my new apartment and that has played a HUGE factor in my mental health. I feel clear, calm and centered more than ever even though I don't have a job right now! I've been really getting into yoga lately - the spiritual and physical sides are so good for my soul.  I have lost around 22lbs (10kg) since leaving Canada and have done it in a healthy and safe way. I haven't been "dieting" or restricting food. I have just been 100% more active than I was in Canada and have also stopped eating gluten and dairy (except for chocolate sometimes ;) because of some intolerances I was experiencing.  I feel strong, inspired and motivated to continue cementing my spiritual, physical and mental health.

I also quit my job two days ago. It was very unexpected but a build up of tension with particular people lead me to stand up for myself and say NO. I no longer stand for this. It may not have been the best decision financially but I trust I will find a job very soon.

The past 6 years since I started pursuing this acting career has helped me walk unafraid. I no longer withstand being disrespected and treated like a child.

I don't think I would have done the same thing 6 years ago, but I am no longer a girl I am a woman with a voice.

This journey is inspiring me more and more every day.

Keep on fighting, keep on stepping forward and remember to walk unafraid.

With love,

Monday, May 11, 2015

3 Months in LA

I'm a week or so early in writing this but the time felt right.

The last three months have been testing but overall I am happy with the way things are working out here in Los Angeles.

I've been lucky to make a lot of like minded friends through my serving job. A majority of the people here didn't grow up in LA, so they are also looking to make friends to broaden their groups as well. I haven't met many Australian's yet but I'm sure I will!

The first month or so was a little rough for me, as I'm sure it is for anyone who moves to a huge new city. There were times where I doubted my decision, and I'm sure there will be many other times when I also feel that way. I thought to myself "What the HELL am I doing here?!" But in those moments of fear and doubt, you just have to breathe. At least the sunshine keeps me a little more sane than I was in Vancouver!

I've been hiking a lot since I arrived, seeing beautiful parts of California: Malibu, Topanga and Eaton Canyon etc. I've also been exercising a lot more at my gym and focusing on healthy eating and fitness. It is such a competitive industry here, and I quickly realised I had to up my game. It's an unfortunate part of the industry that it is so look's based, but for now I have to just bite the bullet and work my butt off (quite literally).

Once I get to a happy level in my fitness, I will start looking for an agent. I'm excited and a little nervous to get out there again! It feels like it's been a while. But I've joined Actors Access and have been applying for several indie projects, short films and even commercials. So hopefully I can even book some work on my own.

I've always been a little impatient, but this time around I am making an effort to just take things as they come. This is the fourth city I have now lived in to pursue my acting - Brisbane, Sydney, Vancouver and now Los Angeles. I trust that everything will work out at the right time.

And so the journey continues.


Monday, March 16, 2015

3 Weeks in LA

It's hard to believe I've been in LA as long as I was back in Australia just last month.

Australia feels like a blur of long awaited catch ups with family and friends, days by the pool and endless hours of reminiscing of times past. It was refreshing to be home and sadly it was over almost as soon as it began. Unfortunately it's a part of this life I have chosen to pursue, sad goodbyes in order to chase a dream bigger than I could ever truly imagine.

The last three weeks have been tough but I got through it. So I will keep going. As I always do.

The first week I focussed on finding accommodation. Staying in the hostel was a good starter. It gave me easy access to the public transit and staying at such a central location made it easy for me to find my way around the city.

And Los Angeles is a BIG city.

Nothing can quite prepare you for that. As I write this I can hear the non-stop blaring of several sirens at 1am in the morning. There are parts of the city which scare me, but mostly I feel safe where I am living.

The second week, after I got settled into my new apartment with my roomie and her adorably cute dog, I focussed on finding a job. It took me longer than expected to find work. In saying that, by my fifth day searching, I had secured a serving job in a popular part of town. In other cities I have moved to I have always found a job within the first or second day of handing out resumes. LA was different. I could feel the energy was different. EVERYONE is hungry for work. The word I kept hearing was "hustle". After 4 days of walking around the city on foot, handing out resumes, and with no luck I asked one of the servers at a restaurant "What's the go, is March a bad time to look for work??" His reply, "Honey, any time is a bad time to look for work in LA. Everyone wants work! It's LA, it's competitive.
You've got to hustle!"

Thankfully the next day I secured my new job. Because, I hustled.

It was a relief to finally have a job. But no time to slack off now! The third week was filled with intense training and menu knowledge testing for my new job.

I'm glad that I decided to take everything in steps and one at a time. People have been asking me, "Have you found an agent yet?" but my answer is that this time, I want to take things slow and one step at a time. I've made the mistake in the past to want to have everything happening straight away (in Sydney and Vancouver). And things didn't necessarily turn out the way I wanted or they took longer than expected. I've learnt now to take things one step at a time. And to be patient.

So firstly I want to become comfortable in my job and then I'll start looking for an LA agent. In the mean time I'm meeting lots of other actors at my work who I'm sure will have lots of information for me.

It's strange to finally be here.

The last few weeks have been a bit lonely, but that's to be expected when moving to a new city. It will take time for me to make new connections and friendships and to truly feel comfortable in this gigantic city I now call home. It's going to be a bit of a lonely 25th birthday this Friday, but onwards and upwards I say.

I've been dreaming about this for so long, now that I'm here I have this strange sense of "Okay...what's next?". But I just have to trust that I have come this far, and take that as a sign that I'm supposed to be here.  Why else would the green card have basically fallen into my lap!

There are so many things I want to achieve and I know that it will take time. I'm looking at LA as the big picture...

I'm in this for the long run.

Meish x

Saturday, February 28, 2015

6 Days in LA

I've survived my first week in LA.

(Well truthfully I'm one day short but I'll get there.)

I've been working towards this move for that past five years and it's strange to think I am finally here.

As most of you know I spent the last two and half years living, working and chasing the dream in Vancouver, Canada. I am grateful for the time I spent there because I truly believe it was a great stepping stone for me in order to get to LA and in order to really feel comfortable here.

Vancouver was scary when I first arrived. It was the first time I had moved to another country before, let alone across the world. My first week in LA, I haven't been as overwhelmed or scared as what I thought I would be. Yes there were moments of thinking "What the HELL am I doing here?!" But for the most part I feel like I am meant to be here.

Living in Canada for the last few years has made me used to North American culture, whether that be driving on the right hand side of the road, tipping your waitress, the way people communicate and socialise etc. So coming to LA has not been as much of a shock as what I thought it would be if I had come directly from Australia.

One thing that I have noticed about LA, is the way they network and introduce themselves and others in the industry. Everyone is very confident, knows their place and is striving for something. I know it is early days, but it does feel good to be surrounded by that. I went to a networking/artist collaboration event the other night and everyone introducing me was like "This is Meisha. She's an actress and been in.....(list of resume credits)" And everyone introducing each other was doing the same thing! It was nice to see people supporting each other and being proud of each other's achievements.

In my first week here, I stayed in a hostel (so I wouldn't be so lonely) until I found more permanent accommodation, I explored parts of the city around me (I have A LOT more too see!), made friends with people at the hostel and met up with some familiar faces from Australia, and I found a home! WeHo baby! And now begins the search for a serving job and then an LA agent!

It's strange to be starting all over again.

I made a great network of friends who became like family in Canada and it is sad to leave that behind. But this is part of the life I am chasing. Even the last month I spent in Australia was full of emotional hello's (after two and half years apart) and just as sad goodbyes.

I am grateful for all that I have received, the experiences and the journey to come.

I'm sitting here in my new apartment, a glass of wine in my hand, my roommate's dog as company all on a Saturday night whilst updating my blog.  Onwards and upwards from here!  ;)

With time I will make new connections, new friendships and relationships that will mould the rest of my life.

But for now, I'll just take it one step at a time.

Thank you for all your support.

Love Meish xx

Saturday, January 17, 2015

She Has Dreamt

In the early hours of the morning
She lays restless in her bed
Two and a half years overseas
And she is 10 days away from coming home

For the past two years
She has dreamt of her mother's embrace
Warm, inviting and so full of love
And familiarity

She births a smile
Imagining the airport
Walking through the doors
To her teary loving Mum, arms open wide

For the past two years
She has dreamt of playing
On the white sand beaches with her sisters
Giggling and laughing with them both

For the past two years
She has dreamt of leaning
On her Dad's shoulder,
While they watch Lord of the Rings together

For the past two years
She's dreamt of her home town,
Driving up the Range, the green rolling hills
And smelling fresh rain in the mountain air

For the past two years
She's dreamt of endless Summer days
Walking and laughing with her best friend
The now bride to be

For the past two years
She has dreamt of the white sand beaches
The blue ocean and skies
The freedom of her home country


For the past two years
She has also lived
A life of challenge and change
Experience and joy in a country she will always love

For the past two years
She has grown, into a woman
No longer a girl
With hair longer and wilder than ever before

For the past two years
She has made friends who've become family
Moments that have become memories
Experiences that have become growth

For the past two years
She has contemplated, yearned, created
Laughed and cried
For the life she so wishes to achieve


For the past two hours
She hasn't been able to sleep
So she writes and she wonders
What amazing things are coming next...

Meisha Lowe (C) Jan 2015

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"Take life in steps; each one is a journey to learn from." ~ Meisha